That's how I describe my life before I figured out Purpose.
I don't mean everything was soft and cozy.
I mean I didn't quite connect to anything. ANYthing.
The strangest thing about that is I didn't know any better at the time. I would have told anyone and everyone who asked that I was fully connecting with my life. (Side note - nobody asked.)
I had relationships. I had experiences. I had kids. I loved deeply. I laughed fully. I cried...I raged...I learned. I screwed up many times. I tasted victory more times. I had wild affairs. I had deep regrets. I grieved the loss of friends and lovers. I celebrated having those who I came to know later. I found my way through life and felt successful in many ways.
I was in my 40s. I'd lived a while.
I didn't notice the disconnect until after I started living my life on Purpose. My Before Purpose Perspective (BPP) is HUGELY different than my After Purpose Perspective (APP).
I didn't start huge. Using the guidance of a coach, I started by practicing presence and gratitude. I sucked at it. I sucked A LOT.
I kept going though. I began to fully believe to get to Purpose, you have to spend quite a bit of energy using purpose. Little p gets you to Big P.
I set my Little p intentions and I had really tiny successes.
Like I didn't lose my mind during bedtime routine with my youngest. Or when I was assembling a floor lamp and it was INSANELY frustrating, I took a few breaths and thought "Well, at least I have a damn lamp."
I said really tiny successes. But I noticed them. I began to believe I could do it. So I kept setting Little p intentions.
For a while, I was overwhelmed by the feelings of connecting. It felt like everything was too loud....too close....too bright. Too much.
Once I adjusted though...to the brightness...the intensity...the heightened everything, I knew I would never go back.
I still know that. I also know that if you wanted any advice at all, I would say do whatever it takes to get to your own life on Purpose.
You'll never go back.